I’ve said it before I hate the day after wedding, I always feel so lonely. But after last night I have come to a conclusion, I give up! I will never have a wedding, be a mom and it is what it is. I’m tired of the day after a wedding feeling resentment against the happy couple because I am still alone. It’s time to face reality I’m not pretty or smart enough to be a wife, plus people get tired of me after a while so time to make a new plan for my life. Time to put a steel cage around my heart, go back to my comfort zone, shut people out, people live very content and successful lives alone. Now before someone says anything, I’m not giving up faith, I am facing reality, and reality is that God’s plan for my life does not include a husband…time to let go of a childhood fantasy and face reality alone. God can do great things in my life if I would listen to him and let go of stupid dreams.
To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single as I am. – 1 Corinthians 7:8